Let be the start of my life, be the end of my life, and be this moment in time.
And let’s define four functions, anxiety ( ), serenity ( ), forgiveness ( ) and laughter ( ) such that
Then, while it is so painfully true that my moments of anxiety far surpass my glimmers of serenity
As I write this poem I notice that I feel at peace
And if I can allow myself to laugh, then it is provable for any instance of time I can push anxiety away
Therefore it is technically possible that with laughter the moments of serenity can surpass the moments of pain
But if, and only if, I can stay positive for long enough such that the rest of my life I accept there is no such thing as control.
This gives me hope that if I can find laughter in my heart, it’s possible to live a positive life.
Yet, I am now that at the point in time where in all probability my time remaining on this planet ( ) is shorter than the time I’ve spent. I am in the back half. Depending on the remaining length of my life , even if I accept each day I cannot control anything, there is not enough remaining time to balance the scales with laughter alone. Maximizing is not enough. But then again, perhaps this is the wrong function to optimize. Instead let’s define the function humility ( ) by combining laughter ( ) and forgiveness ( ) such that
Then if I can find forgiveness in my heart right
We find the past no longer matters, and given in this moment I feel at peace ( ) then with laughter and true forgiveness, the future can be shown to be positive.
What’s more, if I can laugh in the face of my anxieties, keep forgiveness in my heart, and recognize that control is but an illusion, as I approach the infinite I can become one with the divine.
The proof is left as the exercise of my life.