If I can make it to now Things will be all right. If I can focus on here Not those things that might.
If I can make it to now, Things will be all right, Even if horror Is clearly my plight.
If I can leave behind yesterday Let past times be past. If I can forget what must come, No matter how fast.
If I can make it to now And feel sadness inside. If I can just let my grief Be kind future’s guide.
If I can just make it here, If I can just hold on now, If I can just reach my hand out, I’ll find arms that allow A holding of comfort Where tears can run long, And when sewers are washed clean, Keep hold firm and strong.
If I can make it to now, And let go of escape, The grey fog of sorrow Shall slowly undrape, And valleys of flowers Fed strong by the dew Will await present me To finally break through.
There are three types of people in the world: Jasper Johns, Monets, and Vermeers.
From a distance the Jasper Johns are all fucked up. Get near them, and they are still fucked up. And get really up close, get into their space, and you’ll see, yes, still fucked up.
Monets, from a distance, have it all together. But get near them, become their casual friend, and you’ll see clearly how messed up they are. And really up close, it’s madness.
And Vermeers? Well, from a distance they have it all together. Get close, and they are still all together. But get up really close, become their lover, and you’ll see the crazy. The harrying of the brush-strokes. The mad war where greens meet yellows. The peaks and valleys of the oils clumping on the fabric of their canvas. Perhaps controlled insanity? But insanity none the less.
In intimate closeness, they are all maniae. Yet this is not all they share.
Each is viewed but through a frame, that if we lift and look beyond we see the paint fade off. Vermeer’s kitchen fading to the nothing house. Monet’s Japanese bridge to nowhere. John’s paint splotch that just stops, ends. And in this nothing, we find everything: The painter is there; The brushes are there; The wheat and the chaff; The flowers and the roads; Even the abstract, the numbers and concepts. They all live beyond the wooden box of our constraints. The frames are just a view we impose upon them.
There are three types of people in the world: Jasper Johns, Monets, and Vermeers. They are all beautiful.
The first surveyed the room and alighted upon the Sword of Beauty. Picking up the jeweled hilt, and admiring the calligraphy on the blade, he proclaimed, “here is a sword worthy of my reign! The people will see it and rejoice.” And with that, he entered the arena.
The second surveyed the room and found the Sword of Humility. Grasping the wooden hilt, with its simple cross for a guard, he knelt and prayed, “Lord, may this sword represent that I am but a servant of my people.” And with that, he entered the arena.
The last surveyed the room, and went from sword to sword. Grasping each, he tossed it in his hand, swung once, swung twice, and put it down before moving to the next. Then silently selecting the one that killed best, he entered the arena and became king of them all.
“You dare laugh at me,” snarled Lion at Hyena. “Your death is assured!”
“Of course, of course,” laughed Hyena. “Kill the critic, while meanwhile the gazelle romp free and mock you.”
So Lion hunted all the gazelle, and bringing Hyena to the killing fields, he proclaimed, “Look now Hyena. I am Lion, king of all I see. As surely as I can do this, your death is assured!”
“Of course, of course,” laughed Hyena. “Kill the critic, while the elephant titter behind your back.”
So Lion slaughtered the elephants, the bison and the rhinos. He eviscerated the zebras, the wildebeests, and the giraffes. He massacred the cheetahs, the vultures, and even the other lions. All fell before his roar.
And crushing Hyena beneath his giant paw, he said, “see now, none stand before me. Your death is assured. How can you still laugh?”
“Of course, of course,” giggled Hyena. “You are strong, and you are powerful, and I will most assuredly die. But tomorrow you will find no food, and the day after my brothers will find you. And laugh.”
One Thanksgiving, my grandmother-in-law was appalled that we were going to throw away the bones of our turkey. So she wrapped the carcass in a plastic bag and took it with her on her airplane journey home, where she assured us she would make soup.